Like any mama, Birthdays bring those memories of days that are long gone! Some we are happy to say goodbye to, many we miss with all our hearts!
I sooooooo remember those lonely days of early mommy hood when you feel so alone and tired....questions like "will I ever get to go to the bathroom alone again?" "will I ever get to have just one shirt that isn't smeared with boogers/peanut butter/or tears?" "will I (or they?!!) live through this day?"
The answer is, of course yes, but when you are mom in the midst of it, it is easy to believe that you will survive none of this, and that there will always be two little feet standing outside the bathroom door waiting to ask you (mom) a question that daddy could always answer!
I really can recall those days very clearly, and can even say I miss many of them! I miss the little hand prints all over, the little warm bodies of my boys snuggling me for just 5 more minutes before we had to get moving, and many more but if I don't stop I'll need someone to hold me!!!
On the flip side I do love the men they have become, they are both fun and funny, they are both smart and thoughtful, they love music, reading a good book, cats and most importantly they love Jesus, and choose to serve Him with their limited free time!
I love that our oldest Joel, is married to a wonderful woman who loves God more than Joel, that they have started their lives together with that being first, is more of a comfort than anyone can ever know, for if they have God who can come against them!?
I love that Alec is diving headlong into school and is doing so well, determined to get A's, and then to move on to the next level of college! He is working and tutoring while attending school, and it just blesses the heck out of me!
Our boys have become more than we could have ever hoped and I confess prayed for. As a mom you pray for your kids, praying they will become this or that, they will be honest or just whatever is important to you and your family. I prayed those prayers, some things I never even uttered in a prayer it was just something so deep in my heart and spirit, those things that are so wonderful you feel presumptuous praying for, and yet in my boys I see that.
Now let me also say I am not blind and my boys are far from perfect, but when I read the news and talk with people I hear so many hard things in regards to young adults that I can do nothing but thank God and give Him the credit for my boys, and the way they turned out! I am certain of this it is no thanks to our skills!! We for sure did some things right, but more than that I know...oh I know we did plenty wrong! But God in His mercy covers all our crazy parenting errors!
So Happy 20 & 24th Birthdays to two wonderful young men! I love you both with all my heart and am so proud of you it's insane!!!
mom~
You are a great mom Karen!!
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